A different kind of fool

I have made fun of bloggers for years. Why did I choose to start doing it myself, and more importantly, why now? The answer to the question of my hypocrisy is simple, but in three parts: The news of my coming child, The better realization of my mortality, and my obsession with ever changing self paradigms. Ok maybe it isn't as simple as I thought. At any rate, the end goal is to create a viewable, chronologically decipherable log of my ever changing thoughts, beliefs and ideas in hope that, one day, it will serve as a travel guide to life for my so loved unborn offspring (be it if I am alive or not), or at the very least, make for some humorous bathroom reading.

"There are some jokes you can not understand until you have been a fool many many years and thought yourself finally cured, and then found out that you had just become a different kind of fool." -Robert Anton Wilson

 I have, in my previous 27 years, thought many times I knew how the world worked. Each time I was wrong and each time I found out at what seemed like the most inopportune moment. I feel like this is probably the norm for most humans with enough brain capacity to realize when they have made a mistake(even if they don't admit it to the outside world). I feel like every one, at some point in their life(if they are lucky and mentally fortified), will figure this out. I can't pin point the time of my own epiphany, I'm not even sure if it is a precise event or if it's more like finding pieces to a puzzle that you can never put together but once you've seen them all individually you have a pretty good idea of what the picture puzzle is of. The reflection on this idea has become somewhat of a hobby or pastime of mine. To me the mind is a beautiful machine always moving forward in relation to itself but ever changing direction from the perspective of the onlooker. Sure some folks line may seem straighter than others, but show me a person that has been moving in the same direction from birth in relation to ideas, beliefs, wants, moral standings etc. and I will show you a fool, a shallow puppet with no choice or freedom of it's own.
  We are born a sponge, a clean unmarked sponge. From the day we begin to experience our own reality, we are wiped across it and what we absorb becomes us. We will never be able to completely rid ourselves of what we have taken in.
  Ok justin, fine. I agree. What's your point?
  If you can learn to embrace this, it can resolve much anger and frustration inside you. Making you a more positive, accepting person. It won't stop you from picking up all the dirt you don't want along the way but it may help you be ok with it and realize that without that dirt you may not have picked up that bit of gold that was in with it. It won't take away a wrong turn on the way to a concert on a friday night that has already started, but it may help you be ok with it, in turn making your night enjoyable. Late or not. So from one recovering pessimist to another, I leave you with this thought:
"Positive attitude influences positive results."

And a not completely random, slightly funny clip from an amazing and very strange movie: